Mixed

I got to meet my granddaughter today...

She is tiny...she has perfect toes and slate eyes...she was dressed in a lil pink dress and her dark hair has a little bow.

She furrows her brow, and smiles, she holds your gaze, like she is trying to understand.

I felt mixed emotions getting to see and hold her today.

I held her and breathed in her baby sweetness, I drank in the coos and the smiles...

I pinched back the tears as I finally handed her back to her mommy.

I was elated, sad, happy, wistful and crushed all at the same time.

Also for the first time in a long time, I was able to wrap my arms around Alyssa and give her a hug.

The whole thing leaves me feeling thoughtful and rather pensive.

Come Here my Little Pretty's!

Come one, come all....

Please enter, it is warm and inviting in here....

Come take a seat, kick back, relax....drinks of your choice will be served momentarily...now close your eyes, and let your mind wander a little

we are going to take a ride in Barb's imaginary world.

In my imaginary world, I don't have to work 12 days straight without a day off...
In my imaginary world, I have enough money to take a road trip to go visit all my favorite blog people...
In my imaginary world, there is some sanity in my life...


By now all of you are thinking that your dear little blogger friend Barb has lost her lovin little mind....right???

Well all of you are right!! Barb is off her rocker...a few too many knocks to the 'ole noggin! Yep, dun gone and lost the little sanity I have left!

Society...Church

Who named "society" the keeper of all that is right and moral?

Who made them the final judge of what is deemed right, wrong or immoral?

I don't care much for society, and all that it represents.

These are people like you and I who feel like they have a right to judge another man.

I don't care much for Christians either...and the saddest part is...I am one. There are many times I am embarrassed to call myself a christian, and for the fact that I too have done things that were wrong, but I didn't want to spout the Bible in someones face when I am not on the right path myself....there are just too many that have given God a bad rap.

Don't come calling me out, picking the splinter out of my eye, until you remove the forest growing out of your own.

I used to work with a man, who called himself a devout christian and was a deacon of the church and worked with the youth, and did sound for the services...on and on and on.

He was the first one to bash gay men...openly thought lesbians were hot and told me that he had a nasty dream about me, and would say out loud "look at the ass on that hottie, what I could do to that!"

I am sorry, but I don't think gay basing and talking nasty aligns with being a devout deacon of the church...Or am I just not hip with the way churches think now days?

Would someone care to enlighten me?

Some Pictures

My favorite place in the world...wind in my hair...sand on my feet...not a care in the world.



Barb wants to go back to Europe...I loved Europe, went to Italy and fell in love with it...but now I want to see England, Ireland and Greece.



This lil cutie is my granddaughter. She is turning 2 months in 2 days. I still have never laid eyes on her....



This is my evil side...Only problem is the other side (my angel) part left me a note saying she was taking an extended vacation...



This lil guy is my main man....Can't tell he is spoiled rotten can you. Here kitty, kitty, kitty.

TAGGED

My brain twin Chalice tagged me to do the 8 weird things about me meme.

I am SO not that weird...Hush Chucky! I am not that weird.

I could cheat and just use my same answers from the last one, but I will behave and use new ones....

1. I am a terrible passenger (but a great driver)....The passenger side of the car needs to come equipped with a brake, because when I am riding with someone that is driving like a nut, my brake foot is trying to hit the brakes. But at the same time I am a speed demon when I am driving....Love feeling the speed. Yeah Baby!

2. I love music...and can't carry a tune for the life of me...But when I am alone (especially in the car - people probably think I am a lunatic), I turn the music up and sing at the top of my lungs...If I am at home cleaning, I dance while I sing and clean. (I can't believe I am sharing this.)

3. I have my own style...I do not dress, or do my hair in any manner of what any current style is...I am SO cheap, (only for myself, I hate spending money on me) I will go to buy myself something and by the time I get to the register, I have talked myself out of buying it. I am also an abnormal girl..I HATE SHOPPING! This is where all the guys say 'Hell ya! Love a girl that hates to shop!"

4. I am old school in the way I do my job. I am in the customer service industry, and I hate bad customer service. I make it my daily goal to give the best customer service I can. I say sir, Mme, Thank you, please, its my pleasure, I shake hands and look people in the eye. My pet peeve is when there are customers in our office and the other girls are having a personal conversation. Personal craps stops the minute you clock in for the shift. But when I am off work, there is a whole different side to me.

5. Geez, this is only #5....I am having to dig REALLY deep...I have a very vivid imagination...It has gotten me into trouble and also lots of fun...And we will leave it at that.

6. Me being a not so girlie girl, was a cheerleader in high school...just because there were people that said I never could do it and bet me. Never tell me I can't do something, that will make me prove I can.

7. Is everyone asleep yet? I have been on my own since I was 14 years old. I have been working since then also. Most of my jobs have been in new construction. I know quite a bit about everything there is to building a house...from what a stud is (not the male kind) to changing out windows, what a lode bearing wall is, to what a wax ring or a pea trap is used for. I can cut and lay tile, I have messed with plumbing and electrical...I can design kitchens...hang drywall, and inspect flooring. I also lay epoxy aggregate flooring. Wanna build a house with me?

8. OMG, I never thought I would get here...I am an absolute dork...I love to be happy and laugh and make others happy and laugh. So I will say and do things just to make someone smile or laugh. I love passing people on the streets and greeting them, just to see them smile. A smile is contagious, so pass one along.

BONUS weirdness about me...I love to play cards, any type of cards...poker, UNO, solitaire.

And I am not going to tag anyone...so if you want to do this meme, because I LOVE finding out more about my fellow bloggers, consider yourself tagged.

Muaaaahhhahahaha! (My Crazy Laugh)

Five very brave people volunteered for questions...

Well make that 4, but I refuse to accept one persons answer of no...so he gets questions anyways!

The brave people who volunteered are Enemy, Jay, Greg, Chalice, and the one who didn't volunteer but gets to anyways is Spongy. (ne, ner, ne, ner,) Yep, I sound like a two year old.

Enemy -
1. You are given one million dollars to plan a bloggers get together. Tell us where, when and what your party is all about.

2. In the last meme, you mentioned something about dead people....expound on that.

3. Name one thing that is your biggest pet peeve and one thing that makes you happy.

4. What is the single happiest memory you have.

5. You can choose bloggers to spend six months in a locked house with. Tell us who and why them.

Jay -
1. You are given one million dollars to plan a bloggers get together. Tell us where, when and what your party is all about.

2. Describe your dream wife.

3. If you could live anywhere in the entire world where would it be?

4. You love telling us stories from High School, tell us your favorite memory from high school.

5. You can choose bloggers to spend six months in a locked house with. Tell us who and why them.

Greg-
1.You are given one million dollars to plan a bloggers get together. Tell us where, when and what your party is all about.

2. Describe a perfect day in your life. What would you be doing? Where would you be?

3. What is the craziest thing you have ever done in your life.

4. If you could change one single thing in your life right now, what would it be?

5. You can choose bloggers to spend six months in a locked house with. Tell us who and why them.

Chalice-
1. You are given one million dollars to plan a bloggers get together. Tell us where, when and what your party is all about.

2. We all know you LOVE your man! Tell us where you met and how you fell in love.

3. Tell us the craziest story you have ever heard in your job.

4. Tell us what your dream vacation would be.

5. You can choose bloggers to spend six months in a locked house with. Tell us who and why them.

Spongy - Did you think I would forget?? Let you off the hook...NEVER!! Lets see if you have the guts to actually answer...Enemy and I challenge you!
1. You are given one million dollars to plan a bloggers get together. Tell us where, when and what your party is all about.

2. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be and why?

3. Name the single most embarrassing moment in your life.

4. Name the wildest thing you have ever done.

5. You can choose bloggers to spend six months in a locked house with. Tell us who and why them.


Y'all know how this works....you post your questions, answer them and then find out if anyone wants to be asked questions....and the saga continues!!!

HAVE FUN...and Spongy, I damn well better see some answers.

Answering my Luxie's Questions

1. If....if...ever....by any wild...chance...you get to own a planet. How....would you design it?....Like..would it be a circle, square...triangle..planet??...in what color.....and....like...would it be WI FI ready?..and would there be cable?.....would there be bloggers???.....And..would there be taxes???

In all honesty my planet would be a place that all people (all races, religions, and walks of life) would be welcome to be. JUST BE...love, breathe, be at peace. I am really into the "community" atmosphere where everyone takes care of everyone. People provide for the poor, there is equality not superiority. Of course there would be blogging, I have met some of the BESTEST (yes, I know that is not a word) people in the world in our blogosphere. I doubt there would be cable, there are so many other ways to entertain people than prime time TV. The planet would be a circle, as a circle is unending and unbroken. It creates unity and ability to grow. The planet would have all color hues, in nature and diversity.

2. What would you name this planet and the creatures inhabiting it...and why that name???....

This question is hard to answer, name? Name? Name? Maybe my fellow bloggers can help me come up with a suitable name for this planet.

3. Now listen clearly....what...whaaat is the wiiiiiiildest ride you have ever ever taken???

Hummm, wildest ride??? What kind of ride? Amusment ride? Car ride? Life ride??? Hummmmm??? I will just answer that by saying life has thrown MANY curves in my direction that have felt like a wild ride and I am still here to tell about it.

4. Where would you rather be right now?

Oh I like this question, and I can answer it without hesitation. I would be at the beach. With my bare feet in the sand. Watching the sun as it dips into the sea.

5. What was the scariest thing you ever saw?????

I have seen many scary things in my life. I think the safest to share will be...
When I was a small child. My (horrible, evil, nasty, mean, did I mention evil) step-dad forced me to watch the Exorcist with him. That movie really, truly terrified me. With the strict religious upbringing I had and all the bullsh*t my mother fed me, I WAS TERRIFIED. and my step dad laughed his ass off. (Ya, I know really swell guy).

So I am supposed to ask if any ones wants me to write questions to them...If ya want questions let me know (I can come up with some good ones) and if not, oh well!

Music

There is not a single genre of music that I am stuck in.

I love it all (almost)! I have an eclectic love of music...Sometimes there is a particular artist that has a sexy voice or the words of the song move me.

I love country music. Its great to swing dance and two -step.

I love alternative music. Much of the music, has the ability to make me think. People think I am weird, but I feel music...

I love rock. There is nothing in the world like a great rock 'n roll song to get you going.

I love Oldies! Just great music.

I have met so many people who are so closed minded. I always hear people say' "I hate ___________" whatever kind of music they think is horrible.

Most people fill that blank in with country music...BUT stop and listen to it for a while...YES there are songs that suck, and there are songs and artists I can't stand, but there is so much great music.

Age is Relative

What makes a person old?

Is it the grey in your hair?

Or the laugh wrinkles around your mouth?

Or is it the way you mentally think?

I believe you are only as old as you make yourself.

I am very lucky, and do consider myself so. I am thirty one, and I still get carded in every bar I go into. If I go into a store to buy a bottle of wine the cashier always asks for ID. They are shocked to find I am not still in my early twenties. And I LOVE IT!!

I think half of my "youth" is I take care of myself. I love life, I love people. I know what I want out of life (I may be a long way off from achieveing it, but my eyes are on the goal).

I think age has made my life better, I would never want to go back to being younger again.

Ask Me!

Over the past few days a few fellow bloggers and I have been having conversations about male and female relationships and the size of their hearts....(Yep, I threw that in just for YOU!)

I am curious what all of you think about what makes the opposite sex attractive to you.

There are many things that I find attractive in the opposite sex.
To list a few:

Personality - he must be able to carry on a conversation (about more than just sports), laugh, be able to see outside of his own small world.

Eyes - I love eyes! I recently did a blog on eyes.

Confidence - Not to be confused with cockiness, I love a man who is confident and willing to be strong.

Romance - I love a man who is able to think of things to make a woman happy...such small insignificant things can please me to no end.

Physique - mmmm,mmmm,mmmm. I love to see sexy backs, shoulders and arms on a man.

Smell - Many woman can be turned on or off by a mans smell....Every single human has their own unique smell....and man there are some men out there that I could just sink my teeth into.

These are just a few small things I find attractive....So tell me what you think.



I have seen a few other blogs where people ask questions or give topics they would like to see written about. I thought that you might have some interesting questions or topics...


So, give it to me....come on ask me anything!

Nite...Nite

*Sighing heavily*

Want....to....write.....

No energy......

Good night all....

you are all on my mind.

Take me there

I saw this picture and just had to share it...

It reminds me of so many things....

There is beauty, there is a spirituality, there is peace.

This is a place I want to go.

Ideas

I have been looking at tons of stuff for a tattoo.

Here are some ideas I have some up with.

I am loving the moon...though I kinda like this other moon "face" better.

See, I think she has a gorgeous face. I was thinking of a fairy on a flower, but a moon fits me better. I am a night person and find the moon so appealing. But I don't care for the wings on this fairy. I like the other pictures wings better. They have a more wispy quality to them.

The following picture is what makes a fairy the number one most important thing for me to get a tattoo of. The picture is drawn by my step daughter. She has a huge love of fairy's and is quite the little artist. I so hope that one day she does something with her God given ability. She drew this picture for me for Mothers Day when she was around ten. Since then she had drawn some beautiful original pictures.

Friends

You are among the people I hold dear. I worry about your children, your uncles, your fathers, husbands, sisters, jobs and life.

There are so many people that tell me that all of you are fake, spoofs of my imagination. As I am sure there are some people that use their words to reinvent themselves, they are not people that I choose to blog with. Until I start to say, well there is _____. She has two kids and lives in _____. She does this and that and volunteers here. She is dealing with her father going through _______. All of a sudden they realize that you aren't just screen names, but real people who do share much of your lives with the rest of us.

The people I blog with are real. They experience real triumphs, pain, frustration, and are part of my life.

I have had the opportunity to get to know some of your fairly well and many of you know me.

I have been thinking and one of these days, there are many of you that I would love to have the opportunity to warm my arms around your neck and give you a big 'ole hug.

I actually begin and end my day with you guys. Even if I don't have time to blog or comment, I check in and make sure all is good in your lives....

I also want you all to know that I appreciate the roles you play in my own life. Encouraging me, stripping me of chicken feathers, and giving me lots 'o hugs (this girl loves hugs).

Open My Eyes

They say the eye is the window to the soul. I do believe in that very much. I think that people hide emotion and feelings behind their eyes.

We see beauty, happiness, ugliness, hurt, and pain everyday. These images get locked into our brains.

I also am a firm believer in looking people in the eye. I can not stand it when a person will not make eye contact with me. It makes me feel like they are hiding something, or are a shifty sort.

I think that a person eyes can tell you what they are thinking, how they feel about you and the sort of person they are.

I also find eyes very attractive on both males and females.

So look in to my eye(s) and tell me what you think!!!

No Aliens

Nope aliens have not snatched my body, nor have I secretly snuck off to get inked.

I have just been working more hours than should be allowed for a human. I get home and my mind is just numb. I want to write and read, but then I usually have a beer as I stuff food down my throat so I can sleep and start the same thing all over again the next day.

Thank God I am off on Thurs and Fri!!!

Well I have made up my mind I am definately getting a tattoo. A friend came up with a great idea for a tattoo and says he has a friend who can draw it. I can't wait to see what they come up with.

I also might go on July 4th to see one of my friends getting more of her done.

Other than that I am fine and dandy, just exhausted....

I want Ink

As inspired by several of my friends, I really want a tattoo. My beautiful friend Echo, is working on a gorgeous masterpeice of her own




Another of my friends has this gorgeous fairy on her side.





I have seriously thought about it for awhile now.






My dilemma is this....I still am trying to figure out exactly what I want. I am going to be baring this the rest of my life, I want it to be something that I still love in 10 years. I love things that are of mystical and mythical type. I love unicorns and fairies, but it seems that everyone has a fairy now. And I don't want what everybody else has.

Maybe someone out there can help me come up with some ideas....I know some of you love being creative, and I am SO not creative.

I want something feminine and sexy looking. I think its weird when chicks get hard looking tats, but thats just my opinion.




My other dilemma is where the heck am I gonna put it. I want it in a place I can cover it up, but also show it if I so choose.

I also am SO not going by myself to get it. C'mon Spongy help me get rid of them chicken feathers!!!